My dear beloved!

Long time no see.. I know. But this year is better, faster, harder but I'm feeling much stronger. I've been away for 2 weeks.. somewhere my head got a little rest. I'm getting medication now.. I'm too busy sometimes and that's when I get 'overloaded' (no sleep, no rest.. just working) I hope this explains enough.

Er zijn hele leuke dingen gebeurd het afgelopen jaar. Vriendschappen verbeterd en sommige zelfs hersteld ^^
Ik heb in een clip gespeeld !! de donderdag voor pasen ben ik uitgenodigt om te figureren in de nieuwe clip van Vanvelzen - lovesong. Echt zo gaaf ^^ Like a dream came true

Nou, dit was het voor even, vond dat er een nieuwe journal op mn deviant moest komen, die andere is van een jaar geleden xD

Liefs,

Anne-Marie

Hi everyone..

I can't update for a while, cuz I'm not at home, for 7 weeks now. 2 months to go...*sigh*
It's a whole different world around here, rules rules...and more rules.
I'm here because I'm eh... ill is not the right word to put it. I need some time to figure things out, yes. Mentally and physically.

It's going much better then when I came here tthough, I feel calm and can place things easier, but I'm not at the end of the road jet.
They watch me closely, and they know everything about me.. sometimes they really hurt me, when they say that they won't talk to 'my other persons'.. They wanna talk to me, but that's a thing they don't really understand..

Now It's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be
Perfect
Nothing's gonna change
the things that you've said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard just to talk to you
But you don't understand

The song is from Simple plan, it's called perfect, it's really pretty ^^

Well, now you know Why I'm not updating anything. It's also a fact that I'm a disaster with updating so.. (A)

~ bye bye
~love, Anne (Emma... )

1. What did you do in 2007 that you'd never done before?
That's kind of private... (A)

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I made no resolutions, because I make them every day, it's silly to make them on newyearsday..

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Yes, too many

4. Did anyone close to you die?
Yes, my grandfather

5. What countries did you visit?
germany.. and a quite few places in the netherlands

6. What would you like to have in 2008 that you lacked in 2007?
I want control over my mind and life again. Especially from the illness I'm recovering from!

7. What date from 2007 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
I don't remember, that were to many dates that were wonderful.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
I made a few good decisions...xD

9. What was your biggest failure?
o noo.... well, I failed in vwo-4, Havo-4 now..

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
too much.. were do I start? Well, I have an eatingdisorder, when you have, you feel pain every day in your whole body sometimes. The dentist visits were all awful, roothcanal... for christ sake, that hurt!
2007 was also the year my ankel died xD

11. What was the best thing you bought?
My pc monitor!(L)

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
no comment

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
My parents's and other familily, and sometimes some of my friends..

14. Where did most of your money go?
Clothes

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
My ex-boyfriend. ( not any more of course)


16. What songs will always remind you of 2007?
Linkin park - Numb
Limb Bizkit - Behind blue eyes

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder?
maybe hapier, it depends
ii. thinner or fatter?
Thinner... again
iii. richer or poorer?
Richer! yay, fishwork!

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Basketbal

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Thinkin about food

20. How did you spend Christmas?
not so interesting... I don't remember actually..xD

21. How will you be spending New Years?
With friends and family

22. Did you fall in love in 2007?
yes... it's over now, a new love in 2008 is already been

23. How many one night stands?
2007? none..

24. What were your favourite TV programmes?
Prisonbreak!

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this no, not really

26. What was the best book you read?
Harry Potter 7

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
I can sing..xD!

28. What did you want and get?
money, as always... much love and attention

29. What did you want and not get?
A better relationship with my parents

30. What was your favourite film of this year?
A lot, Alles is Liefde and many, many more

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I was 15 and now I am 16. I've had a lot of friends and family coming over to celebrate the great day..xD it was in the holidays.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
... dunno

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2007?
My very one style, with many hats/caps and much accesoires and such.

34. What kept you sane?
sane.. I'm insane xD

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Channing Tatum!

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
The islam, Geert Wilders

37. Who did you miss?
Some friends, myself.. and some people who are close to me.

38. Who was the best new person you met?
in 2007: Wouter, I guess

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2007.
Do not pretend to be someone you can never be

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
I've got no place to go
I've got nowhere to run.
They'd love to watch me fall
They think they know it all

I'm a nightmare, a disaster
That's what they'd always said
I'm a lost cause, not a hero
But I'll make it on my own
I've gotta prove them wrong
Me against the world
It's me against the world

We won't let them change how we feel in our hearts
We're not gonna let them control us
We won't let them shove all the thoughts in our heads
And we'll never be like them

Hi you all..

Long time no see? Well.. I've made up my mind lately and I've missed deviantart really bad. I've got so much to show you guys, it's unbelievable xD
Bit by bit I'm going to show you what I have painted, drawed or written the last couple of months. Enjoy it, you don't have to like it of course.

I have a singing mood the last few months, I sing everywhere, doesn't matter what kind of people hear me.. bit silly when I look back at some moments. But the thing is, that I made a few lyrics of my one. Maybe I will show them to you, but the're not perfect jet, so I'll give it some time.

But now.. how's my life become? I can't really tell, it's too hectical and it will probably scare you off, but if you read some of my future poems you'll know me a little more from the inside.

That was it for now.. I have to catch some sleep. The last few nights were terrible for my body and mind.. they need some rest.

~ love
Anne

hi everyone..

I want to share some things with you. Actually, it are poems I made some time ago.
They express my feelings. Maybe some people will understand.. some will not. Decide for yourself... It's not enjoyable.

CC is welcome, but don't act smart or try to reconise my feelings.

If you think you are beaten you are
if you think you dare not, you don't
if you'd like o win, but you think you can't
it's almost certain you won't

Protect me
It's all in state of mind

Life battles don't always go
To the stronger or faster man
But sooner or later the man who wins
Is the man who things he can

Think big and your deeds will grow
Think small and you'll fall behind
Think taht you can and you will
It's all in state of mind...

Now look at me
I think I'm lost, and maybe I am
Is it me, or is it my mind
Who's catching you
yes.. I am different

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~with love...
Aii